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tot i have found someone who has the same mindset as me...
but... i'm wrong? but maybe its jus tat XX have not experience wat i experience before...

jus wanna know more about love story from others
love is short.. u won be able to experience it all..
n the only source is from frens, drama,storybk...

asked so many ppl regarding love...
different ppl, different thinking.......
i jus wan to...........

know what???
I FINALLY HAVE A CLIQUE!!
A CLIQUE TAT I REALLY ENJOY WITH!
MY OWN CLIQUE!!
A CLIQUE THAT I WANNA PUT in EFFORTS TOO
but.. i'm really scare same things will happen again..
n i'm starting to feel it....

i don feel a sense of belonging...
is it because of my quietness...?
i really do admire ppl who have a great sense of humour who can ppl around them happy...
n i can nv do so....
i noe they will still feel the same with or without me..
i jus don make a significant different in their lifes

went temple for a project trip with my fren today..
heard from XX n XX that they gg osch to buy the recital tix.
wanted to go, but can only meet them after the trip.
after the trip, was considering if i shd meet them or go sch dance or straight away go collect my spec...
after thinking, i decided to find them
when i reached there, step into osch,
i feel verii uncomfortable, really no sense of security..
they turn and look at me... damn awkward
XXX : why u here?
the moment i heard this, i feel really sad... y am i here?? am i disturbing ur? or is it wrong that i join ur... everyone look so shocked to see me...
that moment... i won forget!!!
or they didn even wan me to join??
n i think even if i nv go, they didn even ask why i nv join them? even if i coming, nobody tell the others? cos its jus verii.... nth?
hahah.. i'm jus a insignificant girl to them..
not much different....

the kind of look they give me machiam i'm a stranger... not one of their clique?
utterly sad.... physically, i'm one of them, but maybe mentally not to some of them?
"why u here" stuck in my head now...
but dk why, i really feel like apologising to ur.. maybe i shdn even come......
y did i go?
go join ur for wat... CHEY
i only know how to emo.... sian of me emo liao lo!
hahah

primary, sec, poly frens are the same..........
i'm jus a nobody.......to anyone......
but, i'm glad that ur still make the effort to put me in the clique...
no longer feel so left out...
i shd be satisfied....
hahaha